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Monday, 29 September 2014


The day was ending on a perfect note. She was lying in my arms after a great smooching session, I looked at her and it was visible that she was lost somewhere, deep in her own thoughts. I asked her,” Baby, you ok, what’s the matter, what are you thinking so much about ”. She said,” nothing”. Her tongues whispered something else and her eyes were saying something else. So I forced her and said,” baby, your eyes never lie, but your tongues do. So please tell me the truth, that what is bothering you so much”. She said,” baby. I have to keep telling lies to my father to meet you, I have to bunk my classes to spend some time with you and somewhere I feel guilty of it. My parents trust me and I am breaking their trust” . I was shocked to hear her saying all this, I didn’t knew what to say, deep within even I knew, we were doing a wrong thing. We were breaking the trust of our parents. But I was too obsessed with her and didn’t want to compromise with our intimate sessions. I had actually become addicted to them and if I had confessed saying yes baby what we are doing is wrong, who knows may be that would have been the end of our intimate sessions. So just to console her,I said,” baby, its ok, we love each other and sometimes we have to make such sacrifices, everything is fair in love and war”. Saying this, I hugged her. But then, after a while, she asked,” if our daughter did the same thing as I am doing now, will you forgive her, will you forgive her If she broke your trust”.  I just froze….and for a few moments sat still not knowing what to say…Thoughts stopped playing in my mind and I was staring at her with a blank expression.  I had no answer to her question……. I just said,” I don’t know, I just cannot answer that”. Surprisingly, she didn’t ask me the same question again. That question of her, really disturbed me to the core because she had asked a valid question and truth is bitter and its difficult to gulp it down. I was puzzled that how such thoughts were coming in her mind but then you can never guess what a woman thinks.

And after some days….we  broke up…oops SORRY she broke up…I was still ready for more intimate sessions…

Friday, 26 September 2014


During the night hours when everyone was asleep. I was roaming through the graveyard where the girl i loved was buried. i stood before her grave and i wept for her. on her grave was written " she loved, she was loved and she died". My mind was in heavy grief. Suddenly the atmosphere around me changed i could see graves around me open up. I saw her grave too. It opened she came out of it.I stood their numb,speechless. She came out of her grave and i saw her writing something on her grave. i saw the words which were written on her grave had vanished. Instead it was written" i double crossed my lover, i slept with many, i was a liar and i died a shameful death" after writing this she looked at me with tears. Seeing all this i just fainted and fell unconscious to the ground. when i woke up i found myself in my bedroom and her pic was lying beside me............

Wednesday, 24 September 2014


Proverbs 19:17

Whoever is generous to the poor lends to the Lord, and he will repay him for his deed.

Hebrews 13:16 

Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God.

Acts 20:35


In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’”

2 Corinthians 9:7 

Each one must give as he has decided in his heart, not reluctantly or under compulsion, for God loves a cheerful giver.

1 John 3:17


But if anyone has the world's goods and sees his brother in need, yet closes his heart against him, how does God's love abide in him?

Well if you ask me, which one of the two ways is a better way to bring a smile on the face of poor soul. I would say both. In both ways, you are helping the poor. I firmly believe, “ ONE SHOULD DO, WHAT ONE CAN DO”. If you can donate, Donate . If you are powerful enough to empower them, then do it. If you can tea ch them, if you can provide them jobs and make them self dependent, then better do it. Being a Common man what I can do is, donate some amount of my money that I get to the poor. I can share my food with them, I can give them my old clothes. We should do our part well and live the rest to God. I understand that there are too many fake beggars out there, there are too many fake NGO’S running just for the sake of business. But then we must have the ability to recognize who deserves our help and who does not. For eg I never give money to healthy beggars whom I feel can earn their living by doing labour work neither do I give my money to kids who beg because they would spend money on buying ghutkas and bheedi. I never donate my money to an NGO unless I have spent some time there.  I rather donate to the disabled, people who are blind, young mothers with children and very old beggars. Giving some amount of money to this poverty struck people won’t make me poor.  If we can make someone smile, if we can put food in the plate of the hungry, why to hesitate, do it. If God almighty has blessed us with abundance, why not share our blessings with others. Spend some time with the sick, spend some time with orphans, spend some time with the disabled and you will realize how much blessed you are. Be generous and this world would be a better place to live.  I am talking about empowerment because, I believe empowerment of the poor is the job of people who are in authority, people who run the nation. There are too many sufferings in the world, too much of poverty, too much of tears, and if we can reduce the sufferings of someone, if we can wipe someone’s tears and make someone smile, we  must surely do that. Our life would be blessed. Our life would get a new meaning. I am not big enough now to empower some one, may be after some years I would be a man having powers to empower but till then let me help the needy by my own ways. If I can’t take care of big things, I shall take care of big things.


Matthew 25:35-45


For I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, I was naked and you clothed me, I was sick and you visited me, I was in prison and you came to me.’ Then the righteous will answer him, saying, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you drink? And when did we see you a stranger and welcome you, or naked and clothe you? And when did we see you sick or in prison and visit you?’

Friday, 19 September 2014


Chotu had decided to get married as his parents had given him the option of continuing his studies or getting married. He chose the latter. At 28, you cannot study anymore. So he married a girl he selected, as he could not get a girl to marry him. I went with him to see the girl and the scene was as uncomfortable as you see in the movies. Well uncomfortable for him, but fun for me. There are actually 20 people looking at you and another 20 are held back in the adjacent room. And then the girl comes with the tea(she  actually does, it’s not a myth. More than 75% of Indian males see their wives for the first time over a tray of tea), the guy, Chotu in this case, gives a smile that cannot be replicated and the girl blushes, turning even redder than the lipstick she is wearing.
Chotu was now summoned , or called by the girl’s father and he was supposedly let alone with the girl. Alone actually meant sitting in a corner where everyone could see you and hear you. I wondered what a guy would say to a girl at such a time. I wondered what I would have asked her had I been in that place. I came up with questions that required just a shake of head.

Q.1 Are you a virgin?
Q.2 Do you expect me to be a virgin ?
Q.3 Do you want a baby ?
Q.4 Are you a non-vegetarian ?
Q.5 Are you the ‘clinging on’ types ?

I called these 5 questions to be marital bliss. Well it was not me he had to question, it was chotu and he was also asking some questions. I asked him later what he had asked and he had asked 5 questions  as well.  Question 1, 4 and 5 being the same for us. Our friendship reached a  new level that day.
That very day, Chotu told me something that he had not told anyone. He told me the reason why he had been afraid of physical intimacy for so long.  Chotu had lived in a boy’s hostel since class 4. One year after joining the school, when chotu was having a bath, his warden came inside and tried to exploit him. Luckily for Chotu, more boys entered the bathroom and the warden had to leave.


Chotu had kept this truth hidden from everyone for the past 18 years of his life and he broke down while telling this to me. I don’t  know why he told me then, may be that was something that had been holding him back and now that he was getting married, he had to tell someone.
I got a perspective on life that day. On how two minutes of your life can change your entire existence. Chotu was my best friend and he had been with us the entire time, trying out whores, making sexual jokes and all but deep within, he was shit scared.


Thursday, 18 September 2014


Well  the story of shweta basu reveals the ugly face of the entertainment industry. It adds a new chapter to the already thick book filled with stories of woman exploitation in our country. Casting couch exists in bollywood and that is a bitter truth. But what was shocking is the approach of Indian media towards the whole issue. I am not here to defend her because what she did is wrong and no girl of good character would do that but I cannot be too judge mental because I am not in her shoes. I don’t know what consequences lead her to do that so would avoid speaking too much on it. So coming back to the whole topic, “ Approach of Indian media towards it”.  Ok fine….you caught a national award winner indulged in a sex racket…fine ok…you made it a national issue..thats also ok. You caught her having sex with someone. Very fine…you went ahead and exposed her…again its ok but the question is Sex involves atleast two persons and you exposed only one. Where is her partner in crime…who was he and what is his identity. You didn’t expose him. Please no gender discrimination in exposing criminals. Hats off to the indian public who actually raised their voice against this discrimination showed by The Indian media. Okay may be that Man bribed the police to hide his identity but did he bribe the media too. Why was the police not targeted to hide facts in such a high profile case.

Shweta Basu Prasad is a National Award winner. I will not believe that she landed in a mess of her own accord. I feel she was systematically pushed over the edge by people who refused to look beyond her skin.

The electronic media too is a joke. I read somewhere that they did a sting operation on her. C’mon guys, you know of many ‘big’ names doing such things. Why don’t you stand up to someone your size? Not only your TRPs, but even respect for you will go up a hundred fold. Common if you have the balls,” KARKE BATAO”…. Expose all the biggies involved in this racket and we the public would give you a standing ovation. Well Truth is stranger than fiction….what looks beautiful at times from outside is very ugly within. Just like Graveyards that look beautiful from outside but contain ugly dead bodies beneath them. Same is the case of our entertainment industry….

Wednesday, 17 September 2014


Like you all, i too dream and i dream a lot. There are several things that i wish to do in life. Too many things.....But Life is here are the top ten things i want to do before i breathe my last:-

1. I wish to learn Guitar, violin and flute and singing

Playing a guitar and singing out your hand written poetry would be so much fun. Music is something that always attracts me towards itself. Its such a stress buster. Even though People do compliment me that i have a good voice and i do make guest appearances in the choir of my church but there has never been a continuity. So you can say i sing well..if not well...i am not that bad....people can tolerate my just needs some polishing. And i wish to learn all this 3 instruments just because they fascinate me and the music that comes out of them is so magical. 

2. I Wish to learn Martial arts

I want to learn it because i am a violent person and i lose my cool very easily. I vent my anger either by breaking things around me or by doing excessive Jogging  or by shouting at people. Many a times it harms my dear ones and i have faced severe consequences for it. People who are well versed in martial arts say its a good way of controlling anger as it brings out the anger in you and channelizes it in a proper way and of course i am a big fan of  Bruce lee, Jackie chan, Akshay kumar and Vidyut jamwal.

3. I wish to climb a mountain and drink tea over there, on the top of it.

Who doesn't want to conquer a mountain. Climbing it doing all the hard work and then reaching the top would be so much fun. And then drinking Tea over there would be like cherry on the cake....HE HE HE HE...

4. I wish to dive deep into the sea.

Wowww...Thinking of it gives me goosebumps. It would be so wonderful to swim within the sea seeing all sorts of aquatic life around you. The ocean is a beautiful world in itself and i wish to explore the beauty of it.

5. I wish to jump from a mountain, a helicopter a tall building...a high jump perhaps and land safely on earth.

It would be fun...That adrenaline rush...when you jump and fall so fast down to earth as gravity of earth attracts you towards itself...wowww...i just want to experience that it feels...flying in the air for a diving...yipeeee

6. I wish to write books.

Storytelling comes naturally to me. I am a great story teller and i wish to tell some stories to the whole world. I wish to write books and want to see them get published.

7. I wish to Direct a movie.

I wish to make a movie....May be on a story that has deeply touched my heart and if  i want to tell it on a bigger canvas...i would surely make it into a movie and movie making is surely interesting. It would have an essence of romance for sure.....and more over...i can get an opportunity to date a beautiful actress.....he he he he...

8. I wish to roam around the world, meet different people, experience different cultures and taste different foods.

Now this is something we all wish to do. Who wants to get stuck at the same place for years. I want to travel....move people...have new experiences....and eat different foods......My first priority would be to explore India and then i will set my eyes to conquer the world.

9. Open an NGO for the hungry and unfortunate people around me.

If God has blessed me, i would surely share my blessings with the unfortunate around me. Its my duty towards the society. My first priority would be to provide food to the hungry because i believe two times meal every day is the basic right of each human being born on earth.

10. I wish to visit a buddhist monastery and spend some time living as a buddhist monk.

Christianity is what i follow....and i love my religion but i have an attraction towards buddhism...its such a peace loving religion...There is so much piece in it.....and Buddhist monks...woww i just love their look...shaved heads..simple clothing and peace glowing on their faces. I want to be one..and moreover it would be give me so much time to meditate and discover inner soul.

Tuesday, 16 September 2014


I am a big fan of Deepika padukone,Her dimples,her acting and that sexy voice she has....wowww marvellous. The character she played in Cocktail "Veronica" is still fresh in my mind. Well i do agree with Deepika padukone  when she vented her anger on Times of India as she said "Yes i am a woman, i have a breasts and a cleavage! You got a problem?". I must actually applaud this woman for having the guts to kick the balls of a leading newspaper," The times of india". This incident exposes the hypocrisy of Indian media. They talk about women empowerment and parallel to that they keep exposing their cleavages too. Its so funny isn't it. We all are at times the same like the indian media, we talk of great things, of great manners, of great culture but at the same time in a dark room when no one is around we watch porn...isn't it. But then its ok, we restrict the beast in ourselves to four corners of our room. 
Its very difficult to control the overflowing lust in us. Its quite difficult to avoid gaping at the voluptuous breast of a woman. Its quite difficult to stop gazing at the perfect figure of a woman, for woman is the most beautiful creation of God. So what should be done, what is the solution. We all should never forget that we are Human beings after all and one must keep his animal instincts under control. Like a dog you cannot move around with a thirsty penis ready to fuck any Bitch that comes your way. Why can't we men channelize our thoughts in a proper way. What is the need to be cheap and vulgar all the time. I know we are a sex obsessed society but there is a thin line that should not be crossed. Why can't we be polite and decent with the women around us. A beautiful woman should not be teased but should be complimented. We men need to be more decent, more poetic in our approach. When we stare at them, it should no make them feel uncomfortable but they should actually feel proud of themselves. Our obsessions should not become a trouble for others. Today you rape a woman, tomorrow the law will rape you. if not the law, surely karma will.
I don't say Deepika padukone is always right and Times of India is not a good newspaper but this time Deepika wins the battle because she is morally correct. HATS OFF DEEPIKA...LOTS OF LOVE FROM IZZY...Well Times of india...hope you have learn your lesson that not to mess with an empowered woman.